getting back up after being knocked down

Ok so im back on here. i don't even know if anybody even checks this anymore but i want to try get back on the ball with writing..(i know.. dont hold your breath!)lol. For most people they know my situation right now. and im sure if ur reading this, u probably do too. i just wanted to say out of this that i am so grateful for such an awesome faithful christian mom. If you don't know who my mom is than your missing out on a blessing. I can remember growing up and thinking i wish my mom wasn't so hard on me and all those times i wanted to skip church and she told me how vital it was for me to be there.. of course back then i had no choice but to go or get a butt whooping then have to go anyways. lol. (oh yeah lol means laugh out loud, my mama cant ever remember what that means). when i hit the years of my life where i could drive and my world was open to so many new things i use to wish she was one of these moms who were so "cool". i mean i loved my mama and thought she was awesome but she didn't give me relaxed rules or no rules like some parents did. all and all i thank God every day that she wasn't one of those parents now. she formed me into a respectable knowledgeable christian woman. i can honestly say she is my best friend, my hero, and my role model. i know i need to walk in the foots steps of jesus, but that is hard to do when times are hard. she encourages me and gives me strength that keeps my head up and lookin to jesus. its hard to realize we aren't on this earth to serve our own selfish needs. we are here to just serve jesus. nothing more, nothing less. most people would look at my life and say what a mess but she doesnt tell me that. she is such a faithful servant and in the absolute worse times she gives me the few words to not fall into the ways of the world. i only wish i could tell her how much i think of her, love her, and respect her for all she has done for me.
God has blessed me with an indescribable mom. continue to keep me in your prayers but also pray for her as she helps me through this storm.


I added this video. watch the whole thing, its awesomely fantastic! it is so appropriate for me in my struggle to always look to god.